That to do-list is slowly but surely getting smaller. Today task is de-cluttering, if there’s one thing that stresses me out it’s when things don’t have a place and end up here there and everywhere, organised living makes me all warm and fluffy inside ( OCD ).
Last night we got some new paint for the kitchen. We have allot of grey colours in the house and I am getting a little bit tired of just seeing grey wherever I look. Don’t get me wrong I love grey, but I just wanted a touch of colour in the house so the kitchen is now… blue! And I looooooove it.
I will post some before and after pictures when it’s all done.
This week is going way too fast. And the list of things I need to get done, well it’s not really got any smaller..
But Jasper has been potty training this week, and he is doing so incredibly well. The only thing he struggles with is doing number two on the toilet, but I’m sure it won’t be long before he picks that up too.
Other than that, not much to report, I had something planned tomorrow which got cancelled, but I suppose that gives me time to work on dealing what that to do list..
And I’ve got a confession to make. I spent a little bit of money on myself for some makeup, it arrived today and it was like Christmas (if not better). But as soon as I spend any money on myself I feel guilty. I try telling myself that I deserve to get myself something now and again but the guilts still there nagging at the back of my head.
Either way I’m very happy with what I got and I now got enough makeup to last me for another year (yes I tend to buy makeup like once or twice a year?).
You know when you’ve carefully planned out what to do with the few hours of alone time after the kids has gone to sleep, and those few hours goes to actually getting the kids of to sleep instead? Yeah, that’s what happened today.
Well it’s Thursday tomorrow and all I have to say about that is YAAAAAAAS new episode of Riverdale. And hopefully I’ll get those couple of hours of alone time tomorrow, so that, maybe I can at least cross one little thing of the to-do list.
A couple of days ago Zack said his first long sentence with meaning “I want you too tickle me”, he has picked up soo much in his speech just lately and I am just so incredibly happy for how well he’s doing.
Zack got his official diagnosis Autism Spectrum Disorder in December after a stressful and emotional time getting there. I will be talking about this in my new YouTube Channel that’s coming soon. I’m hoping that sharing our journey might help someone else in the same situation.
Poor little hiccipops is teething again. None of the other two has ever seemed bothered when their teeth has started coming through but Jamie is. Last night he woke up screaming and nothing would help to calm him down, but now it’s pushed through I think the worst is over until the next one.
I am so amazed by how quickly they develop from little helpless babies to little people. Jamie now cruises around furniture waves bye bye, claps his hands, says mumum and dadad. And it feels like only yesterday he was a little newborn constantly attached to me and now he’s getting all independent.
Half way through the week already and not a single blog post, damn! I’ve managed to get so organised with so many other things, I’ve even started planning our daily meals throughout the week (hello, I’m feeling pretty grown up here). But, and there’s always a but isn’t there? With our little sleep refuser Jamie who’s just developed some sort of grudge against sleep (I’m not going to sleep your not going to sleep no one is fucking sleeping here). It’s been rather difficult squeezing in blogging in the evening although I’ve wanted too, the little time I’ve had in the evening I’ve had to prioritise a few other things, which are more or less done now so let’s hope I don’t find any other excuses.
I’ve still snapped some pictures which I’ve speed edited, so at least I’ve got something to share. Hmm, maybe I will show you the difference between a speed edit and a looong edit at some point.
At bedtime tonight me and Jasper had a little talk like we always do, and I always enjoy them so much because 1. He is hilarious and caring and just great in so many ways (the fact that he can be a little monster we’re just going to ignore for now) and 2. I think due to Zacks autism and the lack of communication from him, it makes me appreciate that I can have a conversation with Jasper, and not take it for granted. Don’t get me wrong Zack communicates in his own little ways but I’ve never been able to actually converse with him but hopefully one day we will get there.
Anyway today Jasper told me to shush and held his hand over my mouth because “baby’s sleeping” (baby wasn’t sleeping, baby was downstairs with daddy.) Then after a while he asked me if Zack was sleeping which he wasn’t so I said no not yet, then he asked me if Jasper would be sleeping soon to which I replied: I think so. Then he asked the same question again and this time I replied: yes. And within 10 seconds he was asleep. It did put a smile on my face my little Jasper he really doesn’t get enough credit, he’s only two and he already notices when Zack doesn’t like something – sometimes before we do. He truly is amazing and Zack couldn’t have asked for a better brother, although they fight like cat and dog at times, when Zack really does get upset his whole face turns into worry “oh no mummy Zack sad, Zack don’t like the noise”. And although I feel bad that he gets in that situation where he’s worried at the age of two I am so proud of him for his compassion and for his love. He’s a big brother and a little brother and he takes care of and loves Zack and Jamie fiercely.
Jasper you are such an amazing human being, never stop being you, you will do great things in life, and you can do anything.
So my day has consisted of cleaning up after kids going through different plans and changes (all in my head whilst cleaning ?). Thinking about eating well and healthy – until I found out the shop ran out of chicken and my planned dinner was ruined. So I ordered pizza in true “fuck it” spirit.
And after I’d put the kids to sleep (which took less then 30 mins, hoooray) I got started on Zacks one page profile. However our little Jamie aka “hiccipops” has some very strong opinions about when it’s time for bed and how it’s unthinkable to go to bed anywhere but in bed with mummy after a certain time, so I’ve had to pause and try and get the rest done tomorrow. So here I am with a happily sleeping baby next to me whom now controls when I go to bed.
My boss, sleeping beauty.
And tomorrow everything goes back to normal. Ryan will be back at work and we will get back to our standard routine again.
I think we have all enjoyed our time together this Christmas (minus the stomach bugs) and feel a little sad that it’s all over. But at the same time it feels nice to get back to normality.
I’m considering setting my alarm for around 5.30-6.00 o’clock, it’s just so nice to get up before the kids and have a cup of coffee in peace without it going cold. But then is it worth losing out on the extra sleep? Hmm, decisions decisions..
Its been a while, I’ve just put everything aside and focused on here and now trying to sort everything out so Ive got a nice stress free start to 2019. Have I succeeded? No, not really still have things I need to get done and the stress is eating me up from the inside, but for tonight I’m going to enjoy myself and just deal with everything tomorrow.
We had a very calm christmas, the kids all ended up with a stubborn tummy bug and Zack vomited just after opening his first present. Other than that I feel as if the kids enjoyed.
Anyway I just wanted to say Happy new year! And I’m back!