I haven’t picked my camera up until today and I’ve barely updated any social media the last week.
As much as I enjoy social media – and it’s something I do because I enjoy it. I tend to put to much pressure on myself sometimes taking the fun out of it and making it stressful. And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing recently, so I decided to just take a break for a week and just be. And it’s certainly worked, I feel inspired with photo ideas, blog post ideas and my fingers just want to keep tapping away on my keyboard but I’m going to have to restrain myself a little because I have to be up bright and early tomorrow and if I’m honest I am really tired.
But I will be back tomorrow with a weekly evaluation, and what’s happening this week. I’ll probably end up writing a few more posts that I’ll schedule to be published throughout the week.
Did I get to sleep? Nah not really our little one who generally is a very good sleeper decided he was waking up at who knows what time and thought it was the perfect time for bouncing all over the bed. So guess who’s sleeping right now?. Either way I have woke up with some more energy today and I feel pretty good, there’s a new episode of riverdale today ( I hope, if they’ve skipped this week I might swear a little ) and I’ve got the majority of things that need doing done, so thumbs up to that. And I mean it’s Friday tomorrow so that alone just makes today a good day.
I tried making some sort of baking concoction of what I had at home, coincidentally the only thing I really had was baileys and it’s safe to say it was a failure. It didn’t really taste of baileys, just alcohol so yeah thumbs down to that. I’m sure the bin enjoyed it, maybe? I’m Sure it’s better than poopy nappies at least.
Yeah I’ve lost it, thinking weather a bin ?! Enjoys whatever I put in it. Think it might be time for more coffee.
So this week so far? Not a fan. Lack of sleep bleh.
Pretty much sums it up really. I mean thank you coffee or I would probably have been sleep parenting, I’m sure that’s a thing.
So I’m in bed nice and early tonight, hoping that I will get a decent nights sleep so that we can turn this week around tomorrow and make it a good one.
By the way Jamie is walking independently more and more, and I am so not ready.
Soon hiccup will be three months old, time is just flying by and I feel like I’m not keeping up. I just want to stop time and get to enjoy my little baby a little longer.
He is by far the “easiest” baby out of the three, hes pretty much constantly happy and content, and he even puts himself to sleep.
He’s really giving us those beaming toothless smiles and giving us so much lovely baby talk, and when he spots his brothers faces his little face lights up and he waves those little arms in excitement.
I am completely run out, exhausted, not physically but mentally. We missed Jamies hip scan this morning because I didn’t remember until the last minute, which is very unlike me. I just feel completely drained and I feel how the tears are burning behind my eyelids at the slightest little thing. I know that its only due to lack of sleep, but sometimes I worry about a depression sneaking up on me again. After having dealt with multiple depressions, I’m trying my best to prevent ever going there again, that involves making sure I sleep enough and eat the right things along with making sure I do little things that I enjoy for myself. Sometimes things can´t be helped like the current lack of sleep but then I just have to make sure I focus on catching up when I get the chance and not try to do everything else.
Life right now is basically just trying to take it easy. Ended up going to labour ward again on Sunday, everything’s okay with baby but my bodies starting to tell me that it’s time to start slowing down. Baby is now head down aswell and I’m a little bit worried about going into premature labour. Zack was a preemie and the difference between him and Jasper was huge although the difference was only a couple of weeks.
To change subject completely we finally got something new to put on our window ledge, I just love cactuses.
Livet består just nu av att försöka ta det lugnt bara. Det blev ett besök hos förlossningen igen i söndags, allt är bra med bebis men min kropp börjar väll säga till att det är dags att lugna ner sig lite. Nu ligger bebis med huvudet ner också och jag är väll lite orolig att förlossningen ska starta för tidigt. Zack var ju prematur och skillnaden mellan honom och Jasper var enorm trots att det bara skilde ett par veckor.
För att helt byta ämne så har vi äntligen hittat något nytt för fönsterkarmen här hemma, älskar kaktusar.