I haven’t picked my camera up until today and I’ve barely updated any social media the last week.
As much as I enjoy social media – and it’s something I do because I enjoy it. I tend to put to much pressure on myself sometimes taking the fun out of it and making it stressful. And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing recently, so I decided to just take a break for a week and just be. And it’s certainly worked, I feel inspired with photo ideas, blog post ideas and my fingers just want to keep tapping away on my keyboard but I’m going to have to restrain myself a little because I have to be up bright and early tomorrow and if I’m honest I am really tired.
But I will be back tomorrow with a weekly evaluation, and what’s happening this week. I’ll probably end up writing a few more posts that I’ll schedule to be published throughout the week.
Did I get to sleep? Nah not really our little one who generally is a very good sleeper decided he was waking up at who knows what time and thought it was the perfect time for bouncing all over the bed. So guess who’s sleeping right now?. Either way I have woke up with some more energy today and I feel pretty good, there’s a new episode of riverdale today ( I hope, if they’ve skipped this week I might swear a little ) and I’ve got the majority of things that need doing done, so thumbs up to that. And I mean it’s Friday tomorrow so that alone just makes today a good day.
I tried making some sort of baking concoction of what I had at home, coincidentally the only thing I really had was baileys and it’s safe to say it was a failure. It didn’t really taste of baileys, just alcohol so yeah thumbs down to that. I’m sure the bin enjoyed it, maybe? I’m Sure it’s better than poopy nappies at least.
Yeah I’ve lost it, thinking weather a bin ?! Enjoys whatever I put in it. Think it might be time for more coffee.
So this week so far? Not a fan. Lack of sleep bleh.
Pretty much sums it up really. I mean thank you coffee or I would probably have been sleep parenting, I’m sure that’s a thing.
So I’m in bed nice and early tonight, hoping that I will get a decent nights sleep so that we can turn this week around tomorrow and make it a good one.
By the way Jamie is walking independently more and more, and I am so not ready.
Jasper is going through a tough phase right now which to be honest is a tough phase for all of us. He is very emotional, and theres so much emotion going on for such a little boy, with such a strong will. No is a big word right now and throwing himself on the floor screaming when he doesn’t get his own way is another fun thing he does. Although I try to be as understanding as possible it does occasionally get overwhelming even for me, and when that happens I just try to think that if its hard for me then how much harder isn’t it for him?. Although I am very clear about setting limits and that screaming and throwing tantrums isn’t going to help him get his own way I also try to be understanding towards his feelings as much as I can.
The weekend has come to an end again, We have got a few things done though, mostly painting, (okay so Ryans done most of the painting, I painted one table), and tomorrow our new media unit arrives which I’ve been looking forward to for a week now. So the house is slowly coming together and looking a little bit nicer, we re-painted all the doors and skirtings in gray and although we still have a little bit left to do, the bits that are done looks amazing.
I will post some pictures of the end result once its all finished.
For now I feel absolutely shattered, I stayed up late yesterday and its resulted in me feeling like I was up all night downing a bottle of vodka, although all I actually drunk was alcohol free kopparberg and played on the ps4 with Ryan. So in a little while I will be heading to bed with Jamie Theo, whom always lets us know he wants to go to bed around this time anyway so it all works out quite well.
Soon hiccup will be three months old, time is just flying by and I feel like I’m not keeping up. I just want to stop time and get to enjoy my little baby a little longer.
He is by far the “easiest” baby out of the three, hes pretty much constantly happy and content, and he even puts himself to sleep.
He’s really giving us those beaming toothless smiles and giving us so much lovely baby talk, and when he spots his brothers faces his little face lights up and he waves those little arms in excitement.
I am completely run out, exhausted, not physically but mentally. We missed Jamies hip scan this morning because I didn’t remember until the last minute, which is very unlike me. I just feel completely drained and I feel how the tears are burning behind my eyelids at the slightest little thing. I know that its only due to lack of sleep, but sometimes I worry about a depression sneaking up on me again. After having dealt with multiple depressions, I’m trying my best to prevent ever going there again, that involves making sure I sleep enough and eat the right things along with making sure I do little things that I enjoy for myself. Sometimes things can´t be helped like the current lack of sleep but then I just have to make sure I focus on catching up when I get the chance and not try to do everything else.
Good evening, I’m already feeling ready to go to bed, but I’m keeping awake for a little bit longer just to spend some more time with Ryan, not that were doing anything together but that doesn´t matter, its nice just to be in his company.
I got to go out and play with Zack in the snow tonight, which was very appreciated but Zack, nice for him to not have Jasper around and have mummy to himself sometimes. Jasper got to skip out on the snow and stayed indoors with daddy instead. If the weather keeps on going like this I’m sure we will get more opportunities to play in the snow, and ill see if I can convince Jasper to dislike the snow a little less.
I had some horrible stomach pains this morning and I actually got quite scared, thankfully it passed quite quickly but ive had some minor pains on and off all day. Hopefully a good nights sleep will help, not that its easy to get one of those when your pregnant.
Godkväll, känner mig redan rätt så redo att gå och lägga mig, men håller mig vaken lite till för att få spendera lite mer tid med Ryan inte för att vi gör något gemensamt men det spelar ingen roll, skönt att bara få ha hans sällskap.
Jag fick ut och lekt lite med Zack i snön ikväll, och det var väldigt uppskattat av Zack, skönt för honom att få slippa Jasper ibland och få mamma lite för sig själv. Jasper fick slippa att gå ut i snön och stanna inne med pappa istället. Fortsätter vädret såhär så får vi säkert fler tillfällen och då kanske jag kan övertala Jasper att tycka mindre illa om snön.
Hade förresten världens magsmärtor imorse och blev faktiskt riktigt rädd, tack och lov så gick det över snabbt men jag har haft lite ont då och då sen dess, förhoppningsvis hjälper en god natts sömn, inte för att det är lätt att få det när man är gravid.