Ahh, weekend, I feel as if I can finally just breath again, for tonight anyway because tomorrow I have to deal with that never ending to-do list again.
Weeks not been to bad though once I started feeling somewhat human again and felt like I’d caught up on a little bit of sleep it’s been alright. And the weather! Sunshine and 13 degrees, me and the kids have walked down to the park a couple of times and just soaked that vitamin d up. And Jamie’s been on the swing for the first time, loved it until I took him out and put him back in the pushchair = not a happy baby.
Worst about this week is my stress levels though, the more I get done on my to-do list (yes I know I’m constantly going on about this damn list but it’s my life) the more I seem to need to add. So this weekend I’m just going to go all in and get it all done. And then hopefully I can enjoy a less stressful week next week.
Speaking of stressful, the stupid damn cooker broke. So now I have to buy a new one, so maybe I had been thinking about buying a new one anyway because well I hate gas cookers and want an electric one. But that doesn’t mean it’s ok for this one to just die on me before I’m ready no, nope, nah-ah.
I should be going to sleep but my brains like nah, and Jamie’s decided the only acceptable sleeping spot tonight is on my throat ( even tried moving him, he just crawled right back with his eyes closed ).
I am very grateful that I actually woke up this morning feeling reasonably rested, hopefully I will feel just as good tomorrow.
Decided, to try a red lip. I’ve always been so jealous of people who can pull off a red lip because I thought I never could. But decided to give it another try, and I actually think it turned out looking good. Honestly I’m stupidly happy about this ?
Anyone else feeling like as soon as your to-do list starts getting smaller it magically gets twice as big again? Kind of like the washing basket, you’ve done five loads of washing but the washing pile never really gets smaller.
Not really much going on here, we’re still recovering from the weekend and trying to get our sleeping pattern back to normal. Kinda hoping the kids will sleep past 5.00 am tomorrow, it would be nice to look and feel a little bit less like a zombie tomorrow.
Going to snuggle up to my little baby now and hopefully have a good nights sleep.
His cute little dimple bum ?
And here you get to see a little peak of our newly painted kitchen walls, isn’t the colour lovely? I love it more everyday.
Since I became a mother there’s four different types of days. There’s really good days, normal days, bad days and really FUCKING bad days. On the really good days I start thinking another baby would be a great idea, their so cute and cuddly oh and that new baby smell, maybe just one more and yadayada. Then on the really FUCKING bad days when I’m close to pulling all my hair off, banging my head on a wall and wishing I could hide in a grave just to get some peace and quiet. Another baby? No, NOPE, I’m getting my tubes tied, removed and fucking burning them. Okay so maybe I’m exaggerating a tad, but you get the point – and just in case you don’t, it’s been a BAD day.
Now I’m going to wait for my greasy cheese burger which I will probably regret eating in the morning, but FUCK IT.
End of rant.
Anyone else with little ones who has a minion obsession? All three of ours just love the minions and I feel as if we’ve got the minion and despicable me films stuck on a constant loop.
It’s quite funny to watch as Jamie becomes more and more mobile and likes to get involved in what the other two are doing, especially when Jamie starts getting into Jaspers toys – just like Jasper used to do with Zack. And Jasper starts looking like he might pop a blood vessel.
Zacks quite tolerable with Jamie and goes careful around him most of the time, but with Jasper, not so much. And I swear sometimes I feel like sticking my head in the sand and just letting them fight it out (not that I ever would, or would actually want them too but on some days especially when I’ve not had any coffee in me yet it can sound like a good idea). Thankfully they do have their moments of kinda sort-of getting along ?
You know when you’ve carefully planned out what to do with the few hours of alone time after the kids has gone to sleep, and those few hours goes to actually getting the kids of to sleep instead? Yeah, that’s what happened today.
Well it’s Thursday tomorrow and all I have to say about that is YAAAAAAAS new episode of Riverdale. And hopefully I’ll get those couple of hours of alone time tomorrow, so that, maybe I can at least cross one little thing of the to-do list.
A couple of days ago Zack said his first long sentence with meaning “I want you too tickle me”, he has picked up soo much in his speech just lately and I am just so incredibly happy for how well he’s doing.
Zack got his official diagnosis Autism Spectrum Disorder in December after a stressful and emotional time getting there. I will be talking about this in my new YouTube Channel that’s coming soon. I’m hoping that sharing our journey might help someone else in the same situation.
Poor little hiccipops is teething again. None of the other two has ever seemed bothered when their teeth has started coming through but Jamie is. Last night he woke up screaming and nothing would help to calm him down, but now it’s pushed through I think the worst is over until the next one.
I am so amazed by how quickly they develop from little helpless babies to little people. Jamie now cruises around furniture waves bye bye, claps his hands, says mumum and dadad. And it feels like only yesterday he was a little newborn constantly attached to me and now he’s getting all independent.
Half way through the week already and not a single blog post, damn! I’ve managed to get so organised with so many other things, I’ve even started planning our daily meals throughout the week (hello, I’m feeling pretty grown up here). But, and there’s always a but isn’t there? With our little sleep refuser Jamie who’s just developed some sort of grudge against sleep (I’m not going to sleep your not going to sleep no one is fucking sleeping here). It’s been rather difficult squeezing in blogging in the evening although I’ve wanted too, the little time I’ve had in the evening I’ve had to prioritise a few other things, which are more or less done now so let’s hope I don’t find any other excuses.
I’ve still snapped some pictures which I’ve speed edited, so at least I’ve got something to share. Hmm, maybe I will show you the difference between a speed edit and a looong edit at some point.
At bedtime tonight me and Jasper had a little talk like we always do, and I always enjoy them so much because 1. He is hilarious and caring and just great in so many ways (the fact that he can be a little monster we’re just going to ignore for now) and 2. I think due to Zacks autism and the lack of communication from him, it makes me appreciate that I can have a conversation with Jasper, and not take it for granted. Don’t get me wrong Zack communicates in his own little ways but I’ve never been able to actually converse with him but hopefully one day we will get there.
Anyway today Jasper told me to shush and held his hand over my mouth because “baby’s sleeping” (baby wasn’t sleeping, baby was downstairs with daddy.) Then after a while he asked me if Zack was sleeping which he wasn’t so I said no not yet, then he asked me if Jasper would be sleeping soon to which I replied: I think so. Then he asked the same question again and this time I replied: yes. And within 10 seconds he was asleep. It did put a smile on my face my little Jasper he really doesn’t get enough credit, he’s only two and he already notices when Zack doesn’t like something – sometimes before we do. He truly is amazing and Zack couldn’t have asked for a better brother, although they fight like cat and dog at times, when Zack really does get upset his whole face turns into worry “oh no mummy Zack sad, Zack don’t like the noise”. And although I feel bad that he gets in that situation where he’s worried at the age of two I am so proud of him for his compassion and for his love. He’s a big brother and a little brother and he takes care of and loves Zack and Jamie fiercely.
Jasper you are such an amazing human being, never stop being you, you will do great things in life, and you can do anything.