The birds and the bees

I had to have the conversation the other day with Jasper, the conversation that I was hoping I wouldn’t have to have yet for a while, a couple of years or you know ever.

Jasper looks at my bump with a very puzzled look and asks me “mummy how did the baby get in there?”. I completely panic, I was not prepared for this and I answer “ When mummy’s and daddy’s love each other very much they have really big cuddles and that makes a baby “. Jasper the little smart ass couldn’t just accept this answer and be done with it nope instead he says “but mummy I give you cuddles”. So panic mode again “ehrum yes but it’s only when boyfriends and girlfriends cuddle that you can make a baby”. And before he manages to come up with another question to my terrible answer I ask him if he has a girlfriend? He replies “ Mummy my girlfriends a little bit interesting “

And that made me laugh so hard that I nearly peed myself.

When it comes to the talk though, I think I’ll have to have a think and sit down and have a better conversation with him, I don’t think the answers I gave him were the best. He took me by surprise okay? I need time to prepare for something like that. 😂

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It’s going to hurt

These quarantine days are going fast and slow at the same time, just like this pregnancy. I want it to go faster because I’m so heavy and tired already. But at the same time I want it to slow down because I have so many things I need get done before our little girl is here. And my stress levels are peaking way too high as it is.

Jasper can’t wait for his little sister to arrive and is always coming up to me giving my bump cuddles and kisses and wanting to feel baby kick.

He’s also expressed an interest in how baby gets out of mummies belly. His new thing is now to point at my private parts whilst telling me that the baby comes out of there and it’s going to hurt. It’s a nice reminder of what’s to come.

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Morning after regrets

Slightly misleading headline, I’ve not been drinking.

We had a lovely evening last night, the kids got to run around, play and tire themselves out which led to an incredible easy bed time. It might of took 15 minutes, might just be a record for us.

I stayed up late, well later then usual which is really late for me. I was editing photographs all night. And oh am I feeling it this morning. I feel like the zombie mom of zombie moms.

I might have to re-edit some of the photos, I was so tired last night that I started rushing through it and looking at them this morning they could use some tweaking.

Today I have to give the house a big clean, finish cleaning the sofa and chair that we started yesterday. And move the living room furniture around. I might do a little vlogg?

But for now It’s breakfast time!

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Expecting baby number four.

As I was reading through my old blog posts the other day I came across one about weather or not we would be having any more children – you can read it here.

And it made me laugh as clearly things didn’t end up the way I thought they would. Because here we are expecting our fourth child.

And although it’s been a struggle for me mentally, accepting that we’re having another child. I’m now in a place where I can say I’m happy about it and I can’t wait to meet our little girl ( I was never not happy, however I was terrified and that feeling took over at that point in time). Although I am still scared about having four children, and how we are going to manage with everything. The other week I completely broke down because I thought we was going to have to buy a new car, but more about that in a separate post.

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Not feeling it

Okay so I rethought the whole weekly update thing, I don’t like it. So there will be no more of that and I’ve also deleted the couple of posts that I did do.

I’m really feeling this week though, we have allot to do and hopefully we will get most of it done. If I’m being realistic it’s probably not all going to get done but we shall try and do it.

We tried my new sunglasses, still very unsure on them. Why is it so damn hard to find a pair that looks good on me? At least they always look good on Jamie.

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Sunday

I haven’t picked my camera up until today and I’ve barely updated any social media the last week.

As much as I enjoy social media – and it’s something I do because I enjoy it. I tend to put to much pressure on myself sometimes taking the fun out of it and making it stressful. And that’s exactly what I’ve been doing recently, so I decided to just take a break for a week and just be. And it’s certainly worked, I feel inspired with photo ideas, blog post ideas and my fingers just want to keep tapping away on my keyboard but I’m going to have to restrain myself a little because I have to be up bright and early tomorrow and if I’m honest I am really tired.

But I will be back tomorrow with a weekly evaluation, and what’s happening this week. I’ll probably end up writing a few more posts that I’ll schedule to be published throughout the week.

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Zack update.

Where do I start? Since we started suspecting Zack having ASD, everything has been a roller coaster. It’s a constant mixture of feelings and I try not think too much about the future and focus on here and now and how to best prepare him for well – life.

Zack pretty much mastered PECS straight away it was something he enjoyed doing and therefor did with no problem at all. Our current work in progress is something called colourful semantics where we have hit a slight bump in the road. Zack wants to do things his way on his terms, if it doesn’t happen in his way he gets stressed, upset inattentive and just tries running of with it to do it himself the way he likes it.

So try to get him slowly used to this I need him on his own with no distraction which is easier said then done when he gets distracted by a cup sitting on the side and he has two brothers running around. But we will get there and we will keep working on it.

Sometimes I feel so useless, I haven’t got enough time, not enough hands, not enough energy. I just feel like a failure and that I need to do so much more, I want to do so much more. But I don’t know how I keep working to get there but somehow end up moving backwards.

But I guess all I can do is my best, and strive to always be better and do better.

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Potty training

As I’ve mentioned previously Jasper has started potty training and it’s going great other than one minor little problem.

He does not want to poop on the toilet, he seems to think it’s a little bit scary. I suppose it’s very different for him aswell seems he normally always stands up when he pops. Yesterday I thought we finally had it, he told me there was poop coming (?) and sat on the toilet, mummy there poo coming, poo coming! ( I was like hooooray it’s finally happening) And then he clenched up and wanted a nappy. Tried encouraging him to try again but it was a clear no.

I’m considering making him a little poop chart, where he can put little poop stickers on a toilet to try and make it fun-ish and get him used to the thought of poop in the toilet. But if anyone has any tricks that’s worked on their toddlers, please let me know, I’m grateful for any input!

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Sunny sun sun sun

Hello! Feels like it’s been a while since I posted anything, but I suppose it’s not really been that long. We have been fully enjoying the last few days and the lovely weather.

We ate our first icecreams of the year and just soaked up as much of that sun as we could.

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Plus and minus

Negatives of today – the vacuum died, and there was no new episode of riverdale.

Positives of today – 16 degrees and it feels like spring! Also I got a new vacuum.

As soon as Ryan got home today we got ready to go and get our new vacuum which I had already reserved online. Honestly a day without being able to vacuum does not work in this house, I vacuum several times a day and not being able to today was just well dirty. However very satisfactory when I unboxed and tried our new one out, you know your getting old when your getting excited by a new vacuum, like really excited but the suctions sooo good.

Time for bed now, I have no expectations for a good nights sleep, it just seems to be one of those weeks.

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